2010-11-22 10:30 p.m.
Give me strength to be the man I wish to be, to be honest, true, and a positive influence in peoples lives.
Hold those whom I care about, sometimes I am not strong enough to hold them on my own, or be there for them when they are in need.
Allow me to forgive myself for not being able to be everything that I wish to be to those who I care for. I have trouble letting go of times where I've held others hearts, but was not able to hold them tight enough, or with enough conviction.
Dear God, I want to be true to myself, and to the ideal of the good. I guess this is difficult when every man and woman on this Earth has the stain of sin upon their breast. Pick me up when I lose to this inevitable conflict of what I am, and what I wish to be.
You have created so much possibility for such beauty, yet allow pain to exist to show us the consequence of our actions, in hopes that we may learn. I hope that I learn.
Indeed you are wise.
Guide my actions, and my mind, and my heart, to do what is right for the good, and what is right for the self.
I realize what truly matters in this world, and will always try to focus my actions to enhancing that which is truly special. Your creations. Us. This is the only thing that matters.
God, thank you for my life, and those within it.
Even though I do not believe in you, I'm starting to hope that you are actual, and maybe hope will lead me to faith.
I'm sorry to those who I can not ............
Help me to learn for those who I can ..........