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At work and bored.
2010-02-08 3:07 p.m.
The skeletons have faded, for now, but every once and a while the people around me melt and become a glimpse of what is to eventually be. I seem to be beating this slowly, or maybe it has nothing to do with a fight, but with the ebe and flow of my mind. Work is a double edged sword. In one hand it gives me great perspective, and provides me the ability to live appropriately. My big brother is gone for a few months, and even though i miss him, i know this is probably one of the best things for him. So instead of feeling sorry for myself for not having my big brother close to me, i am glad he is doing what is needed. Family outlook is good, and i'm glad i have had the opportunity to grow with them. I find myself calling home at least once a week, which i never thought i was capable of. The girlfriend is probably too good for me, and i wonder if i deserve her. We have a trip to Mexico planned for th end of this month, and hopefully it breaths a new life into our relationship. My mind wonders, it's hard to focus, i complain a lot but know how lucky i am. The river of life keeps flowing, and i obey it's changes in direction and speed. I do not try to fight the current as others do, and as hard as they do, but instead i am trying desperetly to enjoy the scenery as it passes. |
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