2 Entries in one day, wow. So if you haven't read lately the one before this entry is new as well.
I wish God would publish the guidelines he uses for determining a humans goodness. For example, how much does he weigh motives? Does he consider the kids natural predisposition? I mean, if some sickeningly wholesome nerd likes being good, it's easy for him to meet the standards. There's no challenge!
Heck, anyone can be good if he wants to be. The true test of ones mettle is being good when one has an innate inclination towards evil. I think one good act by me, should count as five good acts by some sweet-tempered kid motivated by the pureness of his heart, don't you? Of course in my case, the question is purely academic.
The problem with myself is that at an early age, without my permission i should add, i was instilled with morals that now as an "adult" i cannot shake off. I liked things better when i didn't understand them. I already know more then i want to, morally. The fact is, that as a child i was educated against my will, my rights have been trampled! I wonder if there is a right to remain iggnorant.....I don't know, but i refuse to find out.
Another thing, nothing is my fault. My family is dysfunctional and my parents won't empower me. Consequently, i'm not self-actualized. My behaviour is addictive functioning in a disease process of toxic codependancy. I need holistic healing and wellness before i'll accept any responsibility for my actions.......I love the culture of victimhood.
4:04 p.m. - 2002-02-28
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