The song is right, the time is right, now lets see where my mind is tonight.
It's funny how we can (as humans) be able to be so open to others, yet hold so much back. Let it be fear that holds us back, the fear of letting someone to close to you and being able to break you with a single word if need be. Let it be intellectual, not wanting someone to know it all for the purpose that they just do not need to know the inermost thoughts or feelings of a certain individual. Let it be humiliating, one might percive certain aspects of there life to be emberessing to reveal to anyone.
The thing that makes me wonder is why if certain aspects of ones life are so secret, would they even chance the "what if" of someone coming across such information. I have stumbled upon something i'm not sure i should have, but did none the less, and curiousity came over me, luring me to read every single word and being able to dive further into the sub-concious/concious mind of a friend. I feel (in a weird way) privelaged to have done so, but at the same time a little ashamed. Maybe if the person know that what i read has inspired me, the chance of anger might deminish a fraction of a percent. Lets hope.
I've come to wonder if i've been holding back. If what i've been writing here is only the words i feel comfortable writing. I've been inspired to find out. To reach further in my mind and soul and heart, and find what i've been holding back. Self discovery doesn't come that often, i should take the time to really make this worth what it should be. I won't begin right away, i'll just search for what i won't share in my every day journeys.
In regards to the person who has inspired me and to the secret i wasn't supposed to find (or maybe was I?) my mouth is sealed, you've always had my friendship, and i would do nothing against your will. Well maybe just to piss ya off for a while, but thats a different story.
10:55 p.m. - 2002-03-31
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