The night was sureal. I Apologize if it's the booze talking but i feel as if i need to get a few things of my chest. Actually only two which i shall combine in code like i always do. I will ulternate sentences, the first shall be about instance number one, the second will be about instance number two, the third shall be about number one, the forth shall be about number two and so on. This comes from my heart.
I graduated from highschool 2 years ago, but i still feel that the games that were played in highschool are still being played by some. I wanted to scream her name. Friendship is one sided, if one fails, so will the other. The butterflies are gone. What did i do to desrve what has been brought to me by what i thought was friendship. In an instant she was gone. Why do friends take a lifetime to gain, but an instant to lose. I wanted to see her running towards me as i walked away. I am a mere moment away from breaking down and crying. Why does this make me so sad? I wonder where i went wrong, and what i did to make him say the things that i have heard. I wanted to feel special. It hurts so bad. I want to cry. He has hurt me. She left when i needed her the most.
Two things which bring out the same emotion. I am alone tonight in every sense of the word. I look outside at the distant buildings, and realize that with one flash of light, with one blade of steel, with one piece of rope, with one tiny moment, it could all disapear. Just like my friendship. Just like the girl.
2:35 a.m. - 2002-08-29
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