{Pearl Jam}- Even Flow
I wonder if this reality is nothing but a bi-product of a 5th dimension. Maybe thats why this reality only has four dimensions. Just a thought. This idea kinda goes with the old idea that an entire universe can be exisiting on a singular molecule on my very own fingernail. Nobody knows why we are here, what the purpose of existance is, or how we became to be.
{david usher}-Black Black Heart
I wish i could be your Superman. I wish that i was there to protect you whenever you needed, but i cannot help you if you won't let me. There's only so much I can do, There is only so much i can take. If only you could read my hiden words, my words on my other diaryland, only then could you see what i am willing to do. My true state of mind without the bullshit of trying not to hurt people, the bullshit of having a a little voice in the back of my mind telling me to be the kind of man i wish i wasn't, to be a the Last_White_Knight
{Jimmy Eat World}- Sweetness
Schools almost done, maybe after it's all said and done i'll find more inspiration to write in this d-land. Well better shit anyways. I thought of a question that i'd like to ask all my readers. "Why the hell do you read my shit?" What do you get out of it? Do you just read it because you are my friend and feel obligated to read? What are your intentions? Respond to this question if you'd like, if not, no biggie, i got the question off my chest and i guess thats good enough.
{Matthew Good Band}- Euphony & {prodigy} - Breath
I made 10 new years resoloutions this year, lets see how well i'm doing. #1. Will not let others stupidity bother me --- Well, i am trying to better myself with that, but people around me keep doing even stupider things. #2. Live more, enjoy more, play more. --- I think i'm doing this one pretty well. #3. Grow Up. --- Not quite yet, didn't expect this one to come soon. #4. Engulf myself in music. --- Definately accomplished. #5.Write more for myself. --- No inspiration yet, might take some time. #6.Videotape more of my memories. --- No inspiration yet, soon enough. #7. Fall in love. --- Tried really damn hard, but the other person just wouldn't let me. #8.Better relationship with mom. --- Trying, and slow being acomplished. #9.Follow my heart not my mind. --- i let my heart lead me for a while, and it ended fucking everything up. Mission accomplished. #10.Better lifestyle, eat better, that shit. --- Trying, thats more of a long term goal.
{Vast} - Touched
I am not special, I am not insightful, I am not different, i'm finding this out in more harsh ways than i could have every imagined. Thank you drastik for your post that got me thinking about this. I try to be special, i try to be different, i try to be insightful, but in the end, i'm just nolan. No purpose, i don't care anymore who the fuck i am.
{Bush} - Glycerine
Time for a smoke, got a final tommorow morning, need my sleep i suppose. Thank you to all my friends who have offered words of encouragment and advice. It may be totaly wrong, but you cared enough to offer it. I value all of you dearly, and i know that our friendship is not eternal, and may not even last past this month. Who knows when our friendship will end. My best friend of 14 years back in grade school is now my enemy. Who truely know whats going to happen in the future. But for now you are all here my side. Thank you. You will live on in my memory and thought for as long as my mind can contain it.
Later Days...
11:30 p.m. - 2003-01-14
Recent entries:
An Athiests Prayer - 2010-11-22
An apple on a tree - 2010-11-07
At work and bored. - 2010-02-08
Faces - 2009-10-17
Time for a rebirth - 2009-10-16
My profile
Archives
Notes
Diaryland
Random
RSS
others:
drastik
ladyvaduva
shortcake30
audios-babe