Why am I still awake.
It's not like I'm being prductive or anything.
And I am very tired.
So what is keeping me up even though the feeling is uncomfortable?
Some people nail themselves to a cross to prove there devotion to christ.
Some people lock themselves up in monasteries to prove there conviction to whichever God they believe in.
Some people cut themselves to remind themselves that because they still feel pain, they are still alive.
I guess what i'm doing now, my nightly ritual is to pay reverance to my own beliefs.
My belief that I may fall asleep and never wake up.
My belief that I may enjoy the sweet nothingness of sleep so much so i decide to never leave it again.
My belief that it is when the mind is tired, that the most simplistic emotions are reveled, and the most honest of thoughts are given.
My belief that i'm a better writter in this state of mind.
I'm so tired, maybe of more then just being awake for so long.
Tired of so much more in life.
Shit.
Maybe if i wasn't so tired, i could do something about it.
11:42 p.m. - 2004-01-07
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