Continued...
I've never been so physically upset over a thought or thought process before, as i did when i wrote my last entry.
No God = no afterlife = darkness, but not even.
Darkness for eternity wouldn't be that bad, considering darkness is a perception of our reality, insinuating or proving consciousness.
The thing is our human brains cannot wrap around the idea of nothingness for eternity, the lack of even darkness or black, but complete and utter nothingness.
So there was my mind, swirling around this concept, trying to break it in half, destroy it, but instead it became engulfed in it.
Offering no escape for my sanity, as well as a complete malfunction of my nervous system.
I threw up.
I showered and went to bed.
But the morning brought no comfort or relief.
The idea of nothingness is almost enough to force me into a belief of God, and it's not just a belief to comfort me at night, and keep my insides from coming out.
It's more logic then anything, but without my comprehension or acceptance.
I can't place my finger on it, but i now know that God exisits.
I cannot believe otherwise.
12:29 a.m. - 2006-01-22
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