I am floating over a hole that leads to a different reality. At the bottom, one can find everything and nothing. As I float over this hole, i peer down into the darkness, knowing i will not see anything, unless i travel downwards. I am taking a risk, even to venture to the middle of the top of this hole, is dangerous enough, however i still do. The reason I do is beacuse i know deep down that i will not fall, just hover over none existance and creation.
I walk back to safty, where i can feel the ground under my feet. I will venture out again, knowing that i will not fall, and for now that seems like it is enough. The sirens call to me, but i am deaf to there song, i only go there because my soul wills me to do so.
She called me, i am only a toy to her. She does not know this, but i know all to well. I do not mention this to her or try to change it, i just, i just, savour the moments that i have. This may change in times, and maybe her feelings will become present to her once again, but for now, this is all she wants to see, and so it shall be.
I do love her, i don't know why, every essence of my being wants to deny this, but one cannot change something that is real, even though it does exist. We shall see what becomes of this, i shall await this moment, i shall see the story unfold, i shall see deeper in the hole next time i ventur out, but i shall never fall fully into it. That will never happen, but i suppose it's better this way. Tommorow i will see further, and the hole shall release some more of it's secrets.
I shall move onto different rabbit holes, i already have to an extent, but i feel that i will always return to this one.
12:15 a.m. - 2003-01-20
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