An outside force basically inspires every entry I do. I never just go (lightbulb/idea) and start writing, something in my environment gives me an idea of what to write about. Today's entry is inspired from the movie High Fidelity.
Top 5 break ups of my life:
#5.Jordana _______
My relationship with Jordana was neither heartbreaking nor unexpected, and it only lasted an hour. It began at a house party when I spotted her out of the crowd. The most attractive girl at the party, and this was a challenge to me. You see at this time I was about 15 or 16 and in grade 10 or 11, and I was just getting over the problems I had in junior high. I was not popular at all, but once highschool came about I started becoming popular. I guess it was all just a test to myself to see if I could accomplish what I never could have even dreamed about in junior high. I watched her the entire evening, studied her, and began to stalk my prey. I laughed at her joke, we smiled at each other. We began talking, we became friends, but I know that's not what I wanted. We began talking about relationships because people were making out around us, I hinted at that as well. However she told me that she'd never kiss anyone she wasn't dating.... I asked her out, she said yes, and we got busy in the hosts parents bedroom. I accomplished my goal and there was no need for her anymore. I broke up with her an hour later, and left the party. I can't say I regret that, but I can say I feel bad for that, more so for her. I used her, but I am a guy, and that's my excuse. I can't be perfect all the time.
#4. Krystal Fehile
A relationship that lasted about two weeks during highschool, and a relationship I'd be happy to forget. Mainly because of the torment I got from my peers because of the age difference. She is two years younger then I, and back in highschool that was a BIG deal. The reason that this breakup sticks in my mind is because she fooled around with another guy, and I dumped her because of it. It was the first time I was cheated on and last time. (That I'm aware of�)
#3. Sarah Harberanko
Wow, did we hit it off. She was the first girl I really liked. She wasn't a model, she wasn't a rocket scientist, and she was just the perfect opposite of me, just more feminine. We met at the Matthew Goodband concert at the Rev, and after that it was just a steady ride up to a relationship. We had a star we called our own, a song we called out own, and band we called our own. She was perfect. Then one night, she came over for a romantic dinner that I prepared, a romantic dance to our song and surrounded by fifty candles, a romantic walk in the park, and watching a movie together. To put it lightly, there were mixed signals, unwanted actions that I regret now during the duration of the movie. We didn't talk after that, but relayed messages through a mutual friend. I was heart broken. I cried about it, I went for long walks at night to clear my head, and I'd listen to our song and pray to our star that things could have been different. Yet it wasn't.
#2.April Kiever
The most exciting of the bunch. She was kinky, fun, different, and oddly enticing. She always had me on my toes, guessing what weird wacky stuff she'd do or do to me next. I really liked her because of her difference. It's not like she didn't care what people thought of her, it's just that it didn't faze her. The only problem I really had with her was her best friend. I forget his name now but I used to call him the "Crooked Nose Bastard". For some reason he didn't like me, and he give April and myself a hard time about it. It eventually got so bad that we had to break up because it. He wouldn't have stopped until he had it this way, and he got his wish.
#1.Chelsea Astbury
There is so much to say about her, that I'm not even going to try to. But the basic is that I broke up with her twice, and I regret it till today. One time cause i now believe i was afraid of the word love, the second is I got scared that it was becoming a relationship and I might actually have feelings for her, so cheated on her with #2. (Way to go me)She's on my mind constantly, and I have no idea way. All I know is that if I could still be with her today, I think I might be...Even though I don't deserve it.
5:18 p.m. - 2001-04-09
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