I recall a time in my past, that seems to hold tru for today, and the toughts that will envade my mind tommorow. Hanging on by my fingers, the world beneath me, my skydive instructor to my left, i was afraid. the fear of what was to happen next swarmed my thoughts, the lack of knowledge of what was to happen next frightend me, i could only think, but i knew there was only 1 of two outcomes that would follow. Climb back in, or just let go and fall.
I am not hanging on to a plane, i am not 4,500 feet in the air, but i still contemplate the idea of letting go, and just falling. Even though i am at a constant battle with the "what if's", i still miss the times where i'd let everything go, and fall. Maybe it's time to fall again, stop thinking, to run away from the "what if's" and just let go. The world below is scary, but a life isn't worth living in fear.
I know who i am, i know i am a good person, i know i'd do anything to for others, i know all that i need to know. No more questions shall bother me for a while, i haven't prepared, i do not know what is waiting for me at the bottom, but i cannot be bothered with that right now, it's time to let go and fall.
10:22 p.m. - 2002-11-17
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