She said something that kind of bothers me to a degree. It's strange how little things stick in my mind.
She stated to me how sorry she was that i had to hold myself back. I mean i am male and the same urges flow through my body like any other guy, but why does this truth bother me so?
I think it's for the fact that she knows, that she can tell. Well, I can't stop what i feel but i can continue on.
Another girl from my past has shown me that she is still interested. Maybe it's time to continue down whatever path that i am on. If it was meant to be then it will... Who am i kidding, i don't belive that shit for a second. Nothing is meant to be in the first place. I don't believe in that fate shit, and fuck destiny. These are imaginary words, made up by someone who had everything and thought that it was "meant to be" or some poor sucker who had nothing except the hope that his fate and destiny would leave him rich and loved. He probably died alone.
In conclusion (if my english teacher saw that i still used "In conclusion" she'd probably kick my ass), I'm fucking tired. I'll still be a friend, i'll still be there. There is no destiny and things are only what i and others make them to be. Things aren't magicaly going to happen. If you want something fight for it. I'm tired of fighting, i've lost this battle. Time for me to pick my sorry ass up and wage another war for Love.
7:13 p.m. - 2003-01-11
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