I think I should be feeling something. I know i am feeling Something. But it's so vague and to difficult to understand myself.
It's on a bridge between uncertainty and nothingness, not knowing which side to travel to.
I thought this would change everything, or at least something I could understand. It has changed something, but what I do not know.
If only the change was bigger, then I could put my finger on it.
Hmmmmmn...
I wonder if this makes any sense. But I guess it's hard to make sense of something that makes no sense at all.
Maybe time will help me comprhend this. Maybe the feeling will fester as time passes.
I hate waiting.
I hate not knowing.
I guess I need a nap.
(insert nap here)
The nap is now over, and I am awake. Seems like nothing has changed as a result of the nap.
I'm still confused.
I'm smiling though, just wish I knew why.
(insert 2 mindless movies here)
I don't think I'm ready for this. This situation has made life a little to real for me.
Which is both a good thing and a bad thing. It has shown me that life is real, and there's more to it then just sulking and being depressed.
But if things get too real, i know i'll just end up right back where I started.
Too real.
Too real indeed.
I don't think I'm ready for this...
12:58 a.m. - 2004-02-28
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