I've always had low self esteem, still do actually. Some people just might not see it because of my seudo-cocky-confident attitude. Thing is, it's more of a defence mechanism then anything. So when i find out or hear that someone loves me, or is in love with me, i take a step back and do my analyzing thing.
There's gotta be a reason, some other motivation, or the person in love is just fucked up therefore their opinion is void.
Analyze, compute, add, subtract, open folder, close folder, logic says this, logic says that, = answer equals "unknown".
Sometimes logic don't work, expecially in a world where alot of significant factors don't function on logic, nor can be calculated by it.
Sometimes you just have to accept it, "feel" it, disregard the logic and ........
Wait a minute, new thought....If there are factors that don't function on logic, does that make it purely illogical? Or becacause I can be aware of the illogical nature of these factors, can i bring them into the realm of my logic?.....FUCK! off track...this was not the purpose.
........ dive into it completely. How can i be your logic when it is you whom i need to destroy it.
Falling up...it's coming like a train, and the end of the tracks is near.
6:26 p.m. - 2006-11-19
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