Well, first thing is first I suppose. I had the most incredible new years. Best one I've ever had? I believe so. Started off with work, but that's not a bad thing. I'm proud that I'm working when it needs me rather than just when I wish. I started the beginning of 2014 responsible, proud of my accomplishments and who I have become.
And then it went a little crazy.
Got together with a few very close friends and went to a show on 118ave called the "Avenue Theater". Never been, driven past it tons of times, played indoor hockey next door, but hadn't even acknowledged its existence before that night. Walk in, scope the scene, pop the pill, and then mayhem and glory. Our small group of a few very select close friends began to blossom out as more and more recognitions were made. What began as a group of 4, became a group of nearly 100 out of 600 people. I am always AMAZED at how many people I have met through my Samurai Costume and music festivals (one thing i'll always remember you for Nathan...too bad you chose the dark side! LoL. Seriously though, good memory....too bad). I bounced from one group to another to a different interaction, to a familiar story, to a shared feeling, to a cheers of beer, to a dance off, to spinning sabers, to smoking outside, to bringing one person from one group to another and watching a friendship be born. I bought some art, I chewed my tongue purple, i kissed and was kissed more than a moment at the strike of midnight. The entire night I was accepted, and accepting. Every interaction and smile was beautiful...BAH!!! I am just blown away at how cathartic it was, and how hopeful I am for the upcoming year.
So anyways, on to the next.
I talked with Marissa (Leader of Fable Entertainment) and told her that If I got more comfortable doing saber/staff I would perform more. So, I am currently booked in to a lot more performances coming up. Calgary in February is the big one for me... At least I'm practicing now three times a week. Time to step out of the bubble and just go for it. I have fun when I'm not self conscious, just need to get to that level of comfort which I know with practice I will achieve. I'm looking forward to walking around in the storm trooper outfit and then performing at nights. I'm also happy to be going to these things for free!!! Meeting other performers and DJ's and not feeling like a groupie...but actually being one of them. I swear to God (little fan boy time) if I get to perform with longwalkshortdock and actually be on a beer drinking, first name basis, I'll lose my shit!
Thing I am worried about is if I'm doing this as often as I think this will be happening, with performances and practices, I won't have time to help start up the not for profit youth drop in that I am currently a part of....Do I have the energy and time to do both?? Time will tell.
All and all...I'm looking forward to this year. So much potential, so much less baggage to lug around the the last couple years. Am I over the baggage? Probably not, still hits me sometimes and am sure i'm still learning from my obvious mistakes..But it's a shit ton easier and less work. She was so much work. She blamed me for not being adventurous enough, or something like that, but it was impossible to be when I was dealing with her fucking crazies 24/7. It's freed up a lot of time and space. I'm looking forward to filling that time with something a little more worth while.
But with all this...with all this happening here...do I still move in the summer? Do I dare try to learn another city when things are going so well here? Maybe this is something I should push back a year...It's only a year. Guess I have some discussing to do with the old lady. Even if she goes there a year ahead of me I'll see her often enough, and I'll still make that my goal dependent on what happens here. So many things!
Well dear diary, till next time...
10:52 p.m. - 2014-01-08
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